Last we saw our hero sitting in his bosses office about to get exactly what he had coming to him…..
an Employee of the Month Award.
Was he serious?!?
The irony, is that part of the reason I got the award was because I thought I sucked. I personally think it takes me longer to grasp a new job, and since I felt I wasn’t getting it, I just tried harder. Well, I went on to do some pretty cool things with that company with regards to retail, some corporate office work, managed millions of dollars of inventory, and in general just kicked ass and took names for a part of my time there.
The thing that was this…later in life when I went on to build my music business resume, just as at that other job, I didn’t have the self confidence to make it happen. It was like in 6th grade… there was no way I was going to talk to that girl Liz, until someone told her that I liked her. What made me really think that someone was going to pay me when I was already working for free and didn’t have the cojones to even step up to the plate?
Well, this happened all through college, with my only real pay coming from my retail job at the shoe store (and this one time I sold knives… but we won’t talk about that). I graduate, took a little pay cut and got a better position at another sneaker place, and then eventually got a couple of $15 or so an hour jobs to get me started with this whole “real world thing”…well those didn’t work out. One was a temp job with a giant software company doing database integrity work, my boss didn’t like me, and I didn’t really like the work. After that I was a merchansider at a beer manufacturer, where I did merchandising with a crew that I totally didn’t fit in with. (as an example one guy had a sweet little nickname for his girlfriend…”Slutface”… yea real mature), either way I could have been faster and on the last day of my initial probation period I was let go.
Well the whole time I was working at those jobs, I was still working retail on the weekends, I then went back to full time, and with the flexible schedule decided to hook up with my friends who designed t-shirts and Audio Cotton was born. AC started off a little rocky in the finance department, but in an effort to “push it over the cliff to eleven” so I could Finally be able to spend less time on the operational stuff and more time doing what I love I decided to bump back down to being a part time retail associate.
Well my friends, only working a part time job, and running a business that pays for itself only most of the time and pays you a hell of a lot less of the time can only go on for so long. So I have decided that it’s time that… I “get a real job”. Having realized that things need to change with AC have made me really work towards tweaking things, but the new concepts I have in the works aren’t coming soon enough.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m back at the first shoe place part time, and it is great, but it does not really pay my bills. So I’ve decided to make the sacrifice and instead of having my dream oh so amazing super bad-ass job, I’m looking to do something that I think is just a regular bad-ass job. So far I am going to at least apply to work back at the corporate offices in footwear. Not sure how it’s going to work out…we’ll see.
It’s kind of funny, I started this in post part to put off having to write my cover letter, I’m pretty damn nervous. But I have to get over the mental block/lack of self confidence, that tells me that I don’t have the skills to succeed…. because if that stops me from applying then I just made my worst fears come true…and failed!
I guess my new mindset should be one of not wanting to fail so badly that “I would do anything for a job (but I won’t do that)”, haha! What I mean is that I should just have to feel like I need to prove to the world that I can dominate the scene.
So with that, I am off to finish said cover letter, and “dominate said scene”.
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Oh, and if you actually read all of this.. you are so ah-mazing. I ended up finishing that cover letter and have spent some time tweaking my resume to be more general. I plan of making two kind of general ones depending on the job. Either way, I kind of feel like this was just me rambling, so thanks!
These are going into the “Things I said Today” area, I put posts there that are just about me personally (among other things), and this is one of those. But for all those that did read this… even if it is just 1 person, I appreciate it more than you could imagine!
And if you haven’t voted on “Get a Haricut“….” Do it! Seriously, do it…vote on that puppy we’ll blow it away” haha
Talk soon everyone and thanks again!
-Kevin